In the latest of a series of videos from the You Rock Foundation, Killswitch Engage vocalist Jesse Leach has spoken out about his own experiences with suicidal thoughts.
The video comes just a couple of weeks after Slipknot’s Corey Taylor recorded a similar video for the foundation discussing his depression and anxiety.
Leach makes it clear that he “couldn’t have asked for a better home to be raised in”, but says that as he started to question the Christian faith that he had been brought up to believe, depression took hold.
“I had one night in particular where I was ready, it was just total hopelessness. I had divine intervention, whatever you want to call it, it happened to me. Call it what you will, if you don’t believe in God, call it intuition.”
“I was watching the leaves fall off this tree and I felt like I was one of those leaves that just gave up. It was as if all this pain could be gone if I just did this. I scared myself because I had entertained the thought enough where I considered it.”
“From that point on something happened and I went into survival mode. The thought that I could get up right now and do anything. That was the hope that came into my life.”
“I remember just riding my bike, pouring tears. I had that sliver of hope and that’s when things started to change for me. I could easily access happiness and the potential of what life could offer me. Life is fleeting and beautiful from one moment to the next.”
“You have no idea what tomorrow holds. Dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts – it’s really hard to see outside of that, but I did it. I know that anyone can get through this, no matter what you’re going through.”
You can watch Leach’s video for the You Rock Foundation below:
If you’re suffering in silence yourself, DON’T.
In the UK, you can find support via a number of organisations recommended by the National Health Service.